2002-03-04 disastrous week end Ok I really need to update on what happened later saturday... In fact, I saw Nic, but I really have nothin to say about this. I just get the urge to stop it. This is bad, this whole relationship. I won't waste more time with it. Seeing him is making me feel so bad, so I promise myself that I won't call him any more. I need to. I saw him at school today, but I walked by and didn't stop. I was so proud of myself!! :) Just kiddin but I really was proud in a certain way. This is a good beginning...I hope he won't call tonight, because if he does I will need to tell him what I think, and I'd realy prefer not to. It would be easier....I know that it's not the most respectful thing to do, but I would prefer if we just stop seeing each other, without having to discuss it. ,It could all be so simple But you'd rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars Tell me, who I have to be To get some reciprocity No one loves you more than me And no one ever will Is this just a silly game That forces you to act this way Forces you to scream my name Then pretend that you can't stay Tell me, who I have to be To get some reciprocity No one loves you more than me And no one ever will No matter how I think we grow You always seem to let me know It ain't workin' It ain't workin' And when I try to walk away You'd hurt yourself to make me stay This is crazy This is crazy I keep letting you back in How can I explain myself As painful as this thing has been I just can't be with no one else See I know what we got to do You let go and I'll let go too 'Cause no one's hurt me more than you And no one ever will Care for me, care for me I know you care for me There for me, there for me Said you'd be there for me Cry for me, cry for me You said you'd die for me Give to me, give to me Why won't you live for me Lauryn Hill - Ex-Factor
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