2002-08-26
Make up my mind

Grrr. I can't work! It's too boring I'm too tired and I don't have much to do...
Why can't I just come back home and do anything else than sitting here watching my screen..?

Countdown until my birthday: 3 days

Hopefully I'll do something interesting...Nic and I are supposed to go to the casino, but will we? Probably not, because Nic doesn't have enough money...gna gnag gna

He said that even if we're not going he's gonna see me all day thursday...First it was supposed to be thursday and friday...So we'll see if he can keep a promise. He's back for one week here, and what do you think he's doing? Yeah you're right: he's seeing his friends ALL the time. Because: "I don't see 'em that much usually"

Yeah right. Ok it is true, but right now, since he's back here, he saw them EVERY single day.
I'm realizing how much he sucks my energy. We were supposed to see each other tonight and watch a movie we rented this week end (3 movies/3 days), but when I called him this morning he was watching it, so I guess we won't tonight. He better wants to see me either way, because if he tells me once again that he's seing his friends: He's done. I won't stay in a relationship when I come way far back behind his friends. So that's it, this is maybe the last entry I write complaining about Nic...

I mean, one day we have to take different ways, we have to make choices. I think the time has come. If he can't make up his mind(Which I'm sure it's not because he can't but more because he don't want to)then he's gonna lose me...

I'm not sure what I'm gonna do, maybe I'll wait till the end of the week, when I'll see what's going on with our trip. If he stands me up again then, that's all.

I told you it was not a good day.

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